This hasn’t been my experience. Don’t get me wrong; I’ve wanted to be a mum for as long as I can remember. I would often fantasise about my future children and the joys of motherhood. So when the day finally came and I saw those two pink lines on the pregnancy strip, what did I feel? Sheer panic. Panic for how I was going to be a parent, how it was going to affect my relationship, how we would afford it, whether my husband’s health would be stable (he is a two time survivor o